Isn't it funny what life likes to throw at you. A friend of mine calls it "the rench".
It's as if God has a computer that lets him know when someone is getting to comfortable in the way things are going. He then takes a look at that person and decides what needs to be done to let that person know that he is God, and there is no way they can get to comfortable without him.
Take for example...my life.
I was comfortable. Seriously, back in high school I had the life, nothing was going on. I had a mom who worked hard to take care of me. I had two sisters I lived with who are very good kids. I had two very good friends who meant so much to me. I had no guy in my life so there was no complication. I had no bills of any kind. I was doing good in school without really having to try hard. The only thing I can really remember complaining about is when my mom said I didn't do my chores and I can't go to the libarary for a week. Or when she told me I can't go to a dance...simple things like that.

When I hit college it was still not really hard in the begining. I mean before I started school I was able to go home after 8 years to see my mother and my sisters, my grandmother, grandfather , aunts, uncles and a boatload of cousins. I was able to come back to the United States and say "wow, I'm in college". I still had the same two good friends in my life..and along the way I picked up a few more. Life was good. No complications, just simple.

I just it was then God looked at his computer, saw that I was just sailing through life with no worries. He figured if he wanted me to realize I needed him, he had to throw a 'rench' in my plans.

Oh yea I had plans. I had plan to finish school in four years, hopefully be married with kids by the time I was 25 years old. Have my citizenship and have my mother and my sisters here in the states with me. I had plans to live next door to Liz after we married brothers and make our kids grow up as best friends too. I had plan to travel, go to the land down under, Africa, London, and somewhere else. I had plans...but all of that did not matter to him, because those plans were not his plans.

First he took the one person I love with all my heart from me, my mother. Then he threw a man in my life. Those two things alone was enough to mess me up. The first started a chain reaction. First I started doing bad in school, which caused the school to ask me to leave. Then I started doing things that I would never do. Then I started acting distant and different to my friends and family.

That chain reaction lead to my loosing one of my two very good friends. Another lost. He also made it so that I will not have to LEAVE school, but that I would have to take my time.

What a God.

All of those events did throw me off of my plans. 1) finishing school in 4 years is out of the question, I'm more looking at 6 years. 2) I am rethinking this whole married with kids thing. Kids I am no longer feeling. I would love to play with your kids and what not, but I do not want one of my own. As far as marriage goes..I don't see it for me. 3) I have my citizenship, but I will not be able to have my mother here by my side. I am also only seeing the possiblity of one sister coming here...not both. 4) I will not be living next door to Liz. We will not be marrying brothers. 5) I still have hopes of traveling, but it is not longer a plan...just an hope.

I wonder if God is still looking at me in the computer wondering what else can he do to let me know that He is God and that I need him to live. What other "rench" can he throw?

Only time will tell....